Have a Fantastic Life.

It is said by those who are in the know, that when you really care about a person, you do not mind if they find their happiness with someone who isn't you. The important matter being that they are happy.

I hope you are.

You have to find your own way, you have things to do, and adventures to have on your own, things in which I cannot participate, as much as I would want to, and I am sure that, eventually you will find that person which will fill your hopes, dreams and desires.

I am not that person.

I am just a man, a man that enjoyed your company, enjoyed your smiles and your laughter, a man that was immensely happy to have you in my home, but in the end, just a man and not your lifetime companion, I am not made for you.

And I thank you.

I thank you for being supportive, for laughing with me, for walking with me and talking until dawn cracked, I thank you for tolerating me and my selfishness and silliness, I thank you for tolerating my insecurities and my being confused and a doddering idiot.

I thank you for being a fantastic companion. And for sharing all those incredible adventures with me.

Contrary to what you told me, I am not angry or sad that you leave. I am glad, and happy, you deserve this opportunity, you work far too much and far too hard to not deserve it, and thus, I am glad that you did not choose me over a lifetime opportunity that might not come again. I would have never been able to live with myself had you not done so.

You don't have to worry about me, yes it's hard living alone sometimes, but it's not something I haven't done before, and so far as I know, nobody has died from it. And regarding me, I believe it's better that way, I know it's best.

I also know you would have loved it if I used that particular word, but I ask you: Is it really that necessary? Is it necessary for me to use a word I have used to describe my relationship with children's cereal, videogames and The Transformers? A word that is used in so many lies and that has been trivialized to the point of irrelevance?

You know our history, you know who we are and what's happened between us, I believe actions speak louder than words, and I believe those actions are more than enough to convey my feelings.

Yes, I know it's not much of a farewell letter, and it's nerdy as all fuck, but it came from the heart. It is the sum of all my feelings for you, and my best, albeit clumsy and plodding, way of expressing those feelings.

And if you want to remember me, then you can do one thing, that's all, one thing:
Have a good life, do that for me.

Have a Fantastic life.